25 Feb 2009 Wednesday

It has been 25 days since I was laid off. Had a few ups and downs in the old job market and I thought I’d be right back into it, but alas, it is not to be.

Everything that I have pursued in terms of school have pretty much come to a dead end, at least for now. You see, Winter semester of college started the 20^th of January and I was laid-off on the 30^th. So everything I wanted to take I now have to wait until the Summer Semester begins in May. Or is it June?

Either way I’m stuck for something to do until then.

Here’s the whole problem in a nutshell: I can work and I want to work, but I don’t want to get into this position again. I need to get a CAREER and not just a job. So do I get a job until school starts and then quit? But then I lose all the unemployment benefits at that time when I have them now.

And that’s another little problem I have. This is the very first time I’ve filed for unemployment. I don’t know what I’m doing. And my pride is a bit bruised too.

And that’s just it. This is not supposed to be about pride. This is what unemployment benefits are for. I did nothing wrong to get into this position, but I feel guilty for taking the benefit.

Each day it gets harder and harder to get motivated to get out of bed and do something. You can only do so much laundry and dishes and vacuuming before you start getting a bit nuts. The highlight of my day today will be going into town and getting food for the cats. That’s it. That’s the only thing I have to do today.

Maybe I’ll stop at the County Library and see if they need a volunteer. Or maybe stop at the county Animal Shelter and see if they need some help. I’ve got to have something to do and volunteering will help pad the old resume too for the future.

And I think I’m getting depressed. Great.

I’m Alive… So Far…