I feel like I do nothing but moan about my family these days. But I must have done something wrong for them to be the way they are with me. I am ignored, overlooked and generally miss called but still I want to know them and stay in contact.

Take the beginning of the week. It was my sister's 30th birthday. But knowing I wasn't going to manage to see her I posted her card and called to wish her a happy birthday and to let her know that I was still waiting on her present arrive. Because it was a special birthday I put more thought into it and spent more than the usual bottle of wine or cinema voucher. A terramundi money pot - decorated in a colour scheme to match her lounge. Plus a copy of her favourite bedtime story as a child which I managed to source on ebay, it is long out of print. I was quite excited about seeing her face when she opens it but not anymore.

My sisters and I are all on Bebo, sometimes I think that is the only way my youngest sister talks to me - so I ignore her messages and then call her at night to talk but she is usually out at some fitness class or another.

I was on bebo today replying to a message from an old school friend and saw that my sister had added new photos.

These photos were of a party, my sister's 30th party. Where was my invite? How the heck should I know. I haven't made any comments on the fact that there had been a party and my invite had gotten lost. I just left a message to say that her present was still delayed and that I would see her at the weekend. When I called to wish her a happy birthday I was bombarded with questions more because I think they see me as a boring fart and that I do nothing so they ask to kinda gloat. When it was my turn to ask what she did at the weekend I was convieniently told that friends were walking up her drive and that she would need to go. I haven't spoken to her since. I am now not even so sure that there really was anyone walking up the drive!

I really have to try and not let it bother me but I am up for fun as much as the next person but I guess it is not cool to have your older sister ( I am only 33) who is a married mother of 3 at any social gathering where the paricipants kid themselves into thinking they are still 21.