An interesting, puzzling confusing day. I am almost sure I WON'T be in the hospital June 9th.

Without going into detail let's just say my primary doctor had no reports from my cardiologist, vascular surgeon or the cardiothoracic surgeon. He did not know that I had been in the hospital and had a procedure done, that a doctor wanted me to have my aorta valve replaced, that my vascular surgeon wanted to operate on both of my legs. He did know that my urologist wanted me to have 3 different ultra-sounds.

My feeling was that he wanted me to take things slow by first making an appointment with the cardiothoracic surgeon and to ask him all and any questions I might have. He feels that the suggestion for the operation was to have it done when I was comparatively healthy and young before symptoms increased and I was too old to have the work done.

The vascular operation was put on hold until at least October so I marked that off the list. The second thing I crossed off my list was making the appointments for the ultra-sounds which are on Monday at 3:15 PM

Now it will be hard to explain the farce that took place between calls to my cardiologist about getting all my records and pictures to my primary doctor, setting up an appointment with the cardiothoracic to whom my primary would send a referral but it seems he wasn't on my HMO's list though they said they were and we went back and forth for about 2 hours until the next time I called the lady in charge of the referrals (someone I worked with as a server while she was going to school!!) went home as it was quitting time.

In any case I made an appointment for Wednesday AM--9:15 AM!!!--as the doctor only has office hours in the morning! Trust me I will get that referral business straightened out BEFORE I get up in the middle of the night for that appointment! :O) The bad thing is that I already have negative feelings towards him due to his (not) handling or following through his telling me I need open heart surgery and leaving. I will change that before I go to see him and hear what he has to say.

Allen leaves for Mexico Friday and after I drop him off at the Miami airport I will have his car for a week. It will feel good not have to rely on other people to get chores done. One thing I plan to do this weekend is to go shopping for a new sofa bed. Gino and I will probably go to see Indiana Jones or Sex and the City.

I forgot an important lesson this week that I have followed for many years--when you worry you spend time in the future and don't deal with the here and now--once again I officially turn ALL the worrying over to AJ!!!