WHY I AM STILL SINGLE!!!!!

I had pretty ggod days Thursday, Friday and Saturday--very low anxiety--a little more
energy than I have had--no debating whether I should or shouldn't go to
the hospital--I think my primary doctor cutting back on a couple of the
meds has helped--so far I
am not really bothered by not smoking though once in awhile I crave one
but I get my mind on something else--then last night!! I couldn't
sleep!! I have NEVER had a problem going to sleep or sleeping and now I
found myself staying up all night last night (and NOT because I was out
having sex, booze and decadence like I use to)--really wanted to call
Allen, Gino and/or Jill around 5 in the morning but how far can you
push friendship????

I couldn't imagine putting up with someone in my condition and all the mood swings---I am usually optimistic,
really don't complain or whine but I have been a bear since the
operation on July 21--I'm getting sick of hearing myself complain about
not having energy let alone 'leaning' on friends so much--I am
concerned about not sleeping last night but starting tomorrow back to
my old optimistic, Pollyanna self because if I was living with me the
past month I would have killed me by now!!  LOL

I
do, finally, have an appointment with my heart doctor--not the one who
operated on my but my cardiologist who I haven't seen since before it
was decided I needed the aorta valve replaced--I have a lot of
questions including why I haven't been sent to cardiac rehab which even
surprised my primary doc.

Oh,
yes, I did get my appetite back today--been eating and 'nibbling'
nonstop all day!!! HURRAY!!!!!! (And I won't complain about gaining
weight--well, not more than usual.LOL)