I am really missing my kids! They have been gone since Thursday and it is so hard to be without them. I really wish my husband would call of this whole divorce, tell me he really loves me, wants to make this work and will try to forgive me. Now back to reality... that is not going to happen and my life is full of changes. There have been so many changes. I haven't liked many of them and so many of the changes have made my stomach turn with anxiety. Now more changes are brewing but they are bringing hopes this time instead of anguish. My mom, who used to be the manager for the company I work for now, that is outsourcing my job, may be starting a new billing office. That means that I may have a job working with the people I work with now! I am thrilled. It would mean flexibility for coming and going, opportunities to make up time on the weekend again and taking time off if needed. Nothing is for sure at this point but it gives me hope. If it doesn't work out, the job I start on the 14th will provide me with income and opportunities for growth in the future. I am finally realizing the good in things again instead of focusing on the bad. I still have many moments of regret but I am learning I can't change it. My husband is not coming home so I do need to make the best out of what I have. I have been thinking a lot and am looking forward to working on self improvements in the months and years to come. I am taking it one moment at a time and I have made good and healthy choices that I am proud of for 11 days now. I feel like I am in recovery. I am Tanya and I am a recovering flawed person...