I too fear what the remaining future will bring. I am living day to day and trying not to think about it. There's a facility Ed uses for his wards where one buys in for $100,000 or so and they are never evicted, but cared for, if they outlive their money. He said I should think about that and I said, if there is no room for my piano, they can shove it, and, also, who wants to live with old people? living in the community keeps you involved and exposes you to a range of possibilities. If you are still thinking that is. Ed has dinner there with his ward Luella every month or so. She has a table full of her friends. Her big thing is saving the daily newspaper horoscope and reading it to them. Kill me now, I said. Smarts in the elderly is an endangered condition. I won't diss them but I don't want to live with them either.

Well, this is discouraging. You were my role model for living a long time!

Talk about roads not taken, maybe if I'd found the right slogan for my kitchen or even the bathroom mirror so I'd see it every day, maybe it would have given my life more focus.