I ate a ham sandwich and a 1/2 cup brown sugar. It is just one of those kinda days. It is so dark and gloomy outside, atleast I think so. I have the shades drawn and every light in the house on. I am listening to 90's hit's and I think these songs suck, but I will continue to listen.

I am in a funk. I am not too broken up by my disabled netbook, there are much bigger worries. I am not going to spill them all out at this time. I have not come to terms with any of it yet. I will just hold back until I have some witty complaint about why I feel like some one just dumped off a bus load of BS on my door step.

I do know one thing about dealing with all of this. I am one selfish little witch. It is all about what I could have done, what I did or how it will all effect me. Me me me and mother fucking I.

I am needing to step outside this little all about me and start to look at the big picture.

Damn I should clean the living room or watch Judge Joe Brown, I must stay productive.

How do you counter act the sugar high let down? Do I need salt?

What a mess. It is a mess in here and in my brain and in my town and our world...

Maybe if I didn't feel so beat down right now I wouldn't be normal.

Maybe this is some sort of crap that may turn into some sort of world changing joke.

How do you go beyond self? I am thinking some googling is in order!