I Am
an optimist but also carry with me all the sadness of any older life

I Want
to win the lotto

I Have
a beautiful life

I Wish
I had done some things differently

I Hate
being second guessed

I Fear
death

I Hear
everything down to a pin dropping on the driveway while I am in the house

I Search
for meaning in anything at all

I Wonder
if Ed will ever stop smoking

I Regret
that I didn’t realize soon enough that Jay had lost himself

I Love
my husband and cats and most animals anywhere

I Ache
for all the road kill I see

I Always
try to do the right thing

I Usually
try to do several things at once

I Am Not
patient with fools but I hide it

I Dance
during lulls in my routine and on the park fishing pier in the morning

I Sing
sometimes when I am riding my bike. I don’t sound good anymore (creak).

I Never
promised you a rose garden

I Rarely
vacuum the rugs

I Cry
several times a week when I am walking because I free associate and a lot comes up through the murky depths of my unconscious

I Am Not Always
I don’t know how to answer this one, although I do know I am always something or other

I Lose
myself when I don’t write me down

I'm Confused
when I am accused of ulterior motives

I Need
everything and it is not enough, but really I do not complain. I thought of having a T shirt printed that said, “All I want is everything. Is that so much to ask?”

I Should
let Ed complain about traffic without telling him to chill. One car in front on an otherwise deserted highway and he is muttering, “Why me, God?” Sometimes I explain it's because God hates him, only him, and he shouldn't fight it.

I Dream
about having a little house in the woods that is totally hidden and it has a rear door that opens into a magical world like the one in “The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe” and you can go there when you need to be away from reality, which is, like, dude, a lot of the time.

xx, Teal (I liked this one.)