I'm back on a compiuter at last!! i'm here at the library at New Augusta Mississippi, and so happy to be here--to be alive and much better, after two and a half years. Months of psychological warfare with my daughter's husband, paralysis of legs and arm weaKness and a daughter who could/would not care for me. This Nightmare was in Texas. Thank goodness for my other daughter Carmen who stepped in and cared for me at the most vulnerable time in my life. I railed against God and literally fought the Devil. I had some suicide pills ready for the time I couldn't take it anymore. I dreamed of returning to my little house in the woods of Mississippi.

Finally after a year, i was dropped off with some of my possessions and a wheelchair at my house in Mississippi--never has anyone been so happy to be home! last winter was dreadful, very cold and rained every damned day, and there I was stuck in the house.I quickly learned to wear the safety belt buckled on the wheelchair,because for months I would fall out on the floor, (or fall off the side of the bed) but I had a wonderful neighbor. I'd call for help and he'd leave his cattle ranching and come right over, and learned to use the Hoyer lift to hydraulic lift me off the floor. I would be in a nursing home if not for him.

Gradually I learned to transfer from bed to chair, and transfer onto a shower bench and bathe myself, and did my own cooking and dishes, and the neighbor fixed a ramp so I could go out on the carport and into the laundry room and wash my clothes. Except for him I was essentially alone, but gradually became stronger and stronge. I was depending on a couple of church ladies who would come by now and then to fo get groceries for me and get my mail.

Next, getting a car!!
Love to all especially Jeri and Laura

susil