I know people don't consciously try to upset me or make me feel bad, especially because my "problem" is not their fault or, in most cases, not even known to them. I also want to be happy for my friends having children, posting numerous pictures of their beautiful babies, etc. It is difficult however, to be GENUINELY excited...I'll admit I even have tinges of jealousy. My husband and I have been diagnosed as "infertile" but that doesn't mean having a child of our own will be impossible - it's just taking a lot more effort and poking and prodding than usual.
I am normally an EXTREMELY patient person, but every month around a certain time when I get to pee on a stick that will tell me the results of our efforts I get anxious, I get my hopes up, I get impatient-and then there it is; one line, a "-" sign or the worst, a big "NO" in a tiny window. It's almost heart breaking, but in the long run worth EVERY second and every emotion.
I have Faith that this WILL happen....hopefully before I turn violent on the next person that asks, "So when are you going to have a baby?"