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From Hope Back to Despair for Jim

I was with Jim most of the day as his doctors called him at least seven or eight times today.
After telling him Monday that he qualified for the new experimental program, the chief radiologist looked at his PET scan this morning, found that the lymph node in the center of his chest is now involved and called off the treatment.
The new protocol is seven weeks of chemo and radiation.  The radiation will be every day for that period with the chemo every day for a period; then ceased to be picked back up after the seven weeks of radiation.
He's self-employed; if he can't work, he has no money to pay his bills.  He's just so depressed as am I.  I don't know what the next move will be now.
Boy, could I use a shoulder to cry on right now.


posted on Aug 4, 2010 3:23 PM ()

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I'm not good at consoling words, but I'm thinking of you.
comment by solitaire on Aug 7, 2010 6:23 AM ()
I am so sorry that you have to go through this as well as the upheaval
of moving. Try to be as optimistic as you can.
comment by elderjane on Aug 5, 2010 6:58 AM ()
So very sorry your brother is going through this--it impacts everyone who loves him as well. You are strong and must just take each day as it comes and keep your hope strong as well so he can take heart from you.
comment by tealstar on Aug 5, 2010 5:45 AM ()
I have broad shoulders if you need one to lean on. None in my family has ever had to deal with cancer. My best friend had cancer, tho, and I have always told her how much I admired her courage and positive attitude in fighting this demon.
comment by gapeach on Aug 4, 2010 7:07 PM ()
-- Been through three family battles with cancer. Each very different. I remember how my mother would eagerly pick up on any hopeful thing that I said, or my sisters said. It was clear she wanted to find optimism -- no one, I guess, can really operate unless you at least imagine there is a light at the end of the tunnel. And why shouldn't we picture some light there, since we have no f'n idea what is coming? You have always sounded like such a buoyant, strong, and happy person that I think your brother is lucky to know you and be around you at this time. But crying waters the grasses of your soul, so it is good for you to do occasionally.
comment by drmaus on Aug 4, 2010 5:50 PM ()
This will be my third go round with cancer as well...all three involving my two brothers and me. I survived breast cancer to the tune of $500,000, I lost my younger brother at Age 58 to lung cancer; now my other brother, the middle child in our family has cancer. Right now, the tears just won't come; I'm just so numb with what these doctors have put us through these past four months; and the worst, I fear, is still ahead. I will cry eventually and then I will feel some better. Thank you for the nice compliment.
reply by redimpala on Aug 4, 2010 6:16 PM ()
Go ahead and have a big cry because Jim is going to need you to lean on and you will need all the strength that YOU do have
comment by greatmartin on Aug 4, 2010 4:52 PM ()
I know. I just don't know where the strength is going to come from; but we do what we have to do when the time comes. I just can't cry right now, but I will.
reply by redimpala on Aug 4, 2010 5:00 PM ()
This is so tough to handle.Sorry about Jim and wish him the best of luck.
comment by fredo on Aug 4, 2010 4:08 PM ()
Thank you, Fredo. It is like having the rug jerked from under us just when we thought things were finally going our way.
reply by redimpala on Aug 4, 2010 5:01 PM ()

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