I have been super busy and I don't like it. Working full time, playing too hard, and trying to keep my house clean is wearing on me. We had a wonderful weekend weather wise. The kids and I worked in the yard and washed the van. I love productive days working together.

As for the soon to be ex hubby... well after I asked him to move home he actually put some thought into it. I don't think he's going to but he contemplated it enough to tell me that if he did that there would be some things I had to do. I knew that there would be. The trust would be difficult to gain back. The hardest one .... he told me I wouldn't be able to blog anymore. I guess I could understand that since d'man was blogging on here at one time. I just don't think that he wouldn't trust that wouldn't happen again. I really doubt he will come back and the longer he is away, I don't know if I really want him back anyway. I am finding there are some wonderful people out there. They may not be for me, but they are nice and it gives me hope for the future. I have met a lot of people on line and I'm very leary about that. One guy wants to meet me. Don't worry, I am being very careful. I'm not going to be preyed upon again... if I can help it anyway.

Work is improving. I am getting the hang of things and gaining more responsibility and experience. I love the variety so I'm happy. The people are still very wonderful and I will be just fine here for the next 6 months and maybe more. I got my first paycheck! Yahoo. I now need to sit down with a budget. I will be glad when I know what I am getting in child support and alimony if I get any. The wait is long. I have mediation next week. I'm nervous and the closer it gets, the sadder I get. The end of a marriage is hard. I'm waiting for it to get easier. Some days are better than others.