Tod has been gone for over a year now and I envied his wife and others who saw him in their dreams. Once I thought a young boy in my dreams could have been Tod as a child, but it was only a "could have been", not a certainty. Last night I dreamed about Tod. It was clearly him, and the context of the dream puzzles me.

Tod and I were in a church- definitely a Catholic Church, and well, I am already losing the dream, but it involved standing in front of a cross and receiving communion. The rest is very hazy already, but I was so happy to see Tod beside me. Why did I see him in church setting?

I am a "fallen away Catholic". That means that while I hold to the Catholic belief systems, I do not practice my beliefs. Tod was baptized Catholic but did not practice it either. He and his wife drifted towards Wicca practices. Maybe this is an emotional response to my niece attacking my religion. I don't know what to make of any of it, but I am happy to have finally seen my son in a dream.

I picked the image because it 'fit'- the Catholic Church and the cemetery. Tod has no resting place. His wife had him cremated and kept his ashes.