Went to the YMCA for kickboxing and swimming last night. I wore my favorite swimsuit- this one-piece I got in March. I think it’s pretty nifty, although it does show off the fact that I really don’t have many curves. I know they’ll come in time, but being an impatient, bratty teenager, I’m kind of wishing I had them now. I guess you could say I’m just a late bloomer.

I guess you could say my lack of womanliness would be my self-concious area. It’s been like that since sometime when I was twelve, when my friends stopped looking like little kids and more like teenagers. Okay, so I’m not COMPLETELY flat- I have a little bit of shape. But not that much.

You know how people say that they’re completely comfortable in their skin? That bugs me. I don’t think ANYBODY is completely comfortable with their appearance. Even the most confident person most likely has one tiny insecurity, although he or she may not admit it. However, I don’t think we should let these little insecurities control our lives. We should live with them the best we can, even though they may bug us (and they will).

I’ve met people who are constantly ranting and raving about their looks. They hate their hair, or they hate their eyes, or they hate their nose, and it’s all they ever talk about! I’m not saying that they have to learn to love their nose or hair or eyes or whatever may be bugging them, because that’s a very hard thing to do. You can’t really expect that out of the average person. But you should put up with them the best you can and try and make due with them. That certain little thing about you shouldn’t be the only thing you see when you look in the mirror. Try to focus on the good stuff instead of the bad. That's what I need to do. I know I have a good, fun personality - quirky, really. My friends and family always tell me my dry sarcasm is one of my best features..ha! That's not a physical attribute so much as a personality trait, but I'm glad I can zing with the best of them!

Let's see, what else is going on in my little life. Oh yeah. Tomorrow night my drama club is putting on its last performance of the year. The boy playing the lead male role can barely remember his lines. That makes me a bit anxious but I'm sure it'll make for an interesting night.

Happy Friday!