Oh!Ma not again.Yep,this what my sister said after I was born.Doomed that day.Maybe they put the hex on me.
Lets back up some.
I joined the Navy and then got drafted in Korean War conflict which took two years of duty serving for our country.
Must say that this saved me life,otherwise I would be behind bars.Yes,I said that.What was left after getting out the Army?could not stay any longer as my health with my ears was getting worse.They told me that I need rehab and looked into it when I am out.
This is a very long story and will cut it short.
After I got out and got my self a job driving a truck and making a dollar an hour.This was 1950.
Before this I attended Berklee School of Music.
Got married a shot gun wedding happen.
Between school and working at a soda jerker in Newbury Square in Boston to keep up with my tution and expenses.
I took up arranging music and had to take an instrument.
So I chose sax.I was not very good at it but manage to played it well to serve out my course.
We also had to learn the keyboard on the piano.
This I did not mind for it help me to arrange some music.
It was fun and enjoyed it a lot.
But a very tough field to get in.
Either your excellent or fair this did not help.
Things got worse with the baby on the way and not much help in paying our bills.
Yes,I had the GI Bills and this helped a lot for schooling but not for my messed up marry life.
Then the child was born and it had spina bifda.
In those days were not too much aware of this.
The daughter last two days and pass.
This would have been the time to get out of my marriage.
Not.I did want a child and thought that we can try it again.
We did have three,one son,and two daughters.
Then all hell broke loose and had to give up my schooling and to to work to support the family which I did for 15 years.
I was not a very good dad or husband.
This all stemp by my growing up in the depression years as there was not love in our family and did not know how to express it.
This what happened as I sat down with the kids as they were much older and understand what I was going through.
Sorry,that I was not a good dad but did managed to stick it out and waited to see what was going to happen.
First I told them about not having any love from the family whats so ever,let along not even a hug.
So,I am asking you before you start a family this is a must.You got the break the cycle and this I will leave it up to you to do so and they did.
They are all married,divorced but the grandchildren are loved .
As for me I slowly came back and then finally realized that it was time to get out of the closet for my true indentiy.
This was the best that ever happened to me.
Free at Last,Free at Last,as MLK will say.
Yes,free at last.
I lost some of the affection from the children which is fine and we handled it beautifully.
The girls finally came around and one son did not.
I have not seen him over two years
We will meet some day I am sure.
This is more to this story and think that I getting worned out .LOL.

Now I am happily settled and the best is yet to come.