I think I will just give up blogging. I have so much stress right now, constant headaches. Its really taking its toll. frankly I am just tired of everything being so hard. I am tired of worrying about if my family is reading my blog. I used to love blogging and the interaction with people. But with all the fights breaking out in blogs its really become annoying. I am not saying there are fights here but this site is fairly new so give it time. this used to be my escape. right now life is not so good. I have this huge financial cloud over my head. frankly I struggle each day trying to think of something to say. My sleeping has gotten worse, the headaches are coming every day. I am tired of pretending I am happy and everything is great. so thats it. if you want my email let me know.