I go both ways... No no no!, your getting me wrong. I already know your thoughts. They aren't what I am thinking. Hell, I'd never do a "guy" (gross).. So don't think that's what I meant.. let me explain...

January is a very "slow" month for my business. To be honest, I've hardly sold anything.. and haven't done a show. February will be better, but anyway..

I have alot of time to "think" in January. Basically I watch "Sebastian" while Roxann works, read your blogs.. all that. Don't get me wrong here either.. watching Sebastian is fun (except for diaper changing), and reading your blogs is great. Always fun to read your lives, gives me confirmation that "I" am the most "Sane" around...

But somehow, I feel I need "more at times"...

So Roxann came home, and I started drinking beer. Ironically, this isn't the first time these "exact events" (that I am about to tell) have happened, and won't be the last. I ask her, "Why is it we haven't had sex" in a few days. Now, everytime I ask this, she always says the same. "Hun, it's because I was on my period"! Well, I say, I know kinda how long they last, and you must be off now. "Yes dear", I am off. "Well, it's been awhile... I think we need some Hardcore kinky sex"... she agreed.

I GO BOTH WAYS (Master or slave)! I don't really care if she ties me up and spanks, or I tie her up and spank. I am very "dynamic" in my ability to assume either role. So I left it to her thoughts, I just gave some slight "suggestions" for either senerio.

Well, it came down to this. First, I'd tie her up awhile. Spank, play.. all that. leave her a moment while I drank a beer (builds anticipation ya know) then we'd have sex.

Then after that, she'd tie me up.. spank all that.. and leave me as her tied up slave the entire night.

ALL of this sounded "Awesome to me"!! And we did it all....

Somehow, well let me explain... Have you ever been in a situation where everything sounded "Awesome", but when you get there.. wasn't all you thought?

Yeah, it was great tying her up.. taking control and all. I even loved her tying me up.. taking control too. The problem was something different.

Have you ever laid "bound and gagged" in your own bed? I have, lots.. but I have the same problem every single time. About 2 hours of laying there without movement, I get a little restless. My wrists hurt, my ankles hurt.. I am trying to drool, but can't because of the gag. Suddenly.. it's not as fun as it seemed before. Before.. I was thinking how cool it would be, to be a woman's sex slave. Now I just wanted "out" and to sleep".

Sooooo, I begin the long process of trying to "free myself". I can't ask Roxann, for one I am gagged. She is there snoring. I can't even "nudge" her (she ties really good). Even if I could contact her, I made her "promise" not to release me (thats so I got the real feeling of being a sex slave)..

Took about 2 hours of working at it, and I was "finally free".. so that's like 4 hours being tied up. I don't regret it, and certain I will ask these things again.. despite the problems. See,, you "can't" get into the "role", without the full experience of it...

Please don't tell "Roxann" I wrote this. Women in general, are a little bit "funny" when it comes to hearing the truth....

Gary :)