Yeah, I probably did "over spice" the ribs tonight.

Generally, I am a good cook. I bought the "ribs", I started the grill. I did my own thing.

What the "Fuck" were they "thinking"? This is the way I am thinking. They seen me drinking "Rum all day". They seen me trying out this new drink called "Josse". It's not like anybody helped me cook. Not even like they bought it or helped with anything on it".

If it's "Too Fucking spicy", Fuck you. Don't eat it! Sebastian loved the ribs. He wouldn't eat anything else. This is why "I love Sebastian (my 16 month child). He is the most "honest one around here". If it's "Not good, he won't eat it". Sebastian "gobbled them up".. actually so did everyone else. Just "Sebastian" didn't complain.

GARY, Gary!! (Roxann says). I just got a call from "Kristy". You need to "unload your van". I need to pick up her kids. They weren't supposed to be out.. but their "bicycles" are over by "Meijers" and I need to help out (miles away). So you need to make your "van" clear, so I can.

Ok "I say".. but I am getting "Super pissed" about ALL the "kid crap" around here. I said.. just bring me a pack of smokes, and another beer. I got the smokes, not the beer. If I didn't have another "24 oz" there, I'd probably flip out on this. But I do.

These kids are doing "all sorts" of chit. Stealing.. Getting "Failure" marks in school. Skipping school. Am I like the "only" person in the world who "realizes" how bad this is? I'm really not the most "stable" person in the world. All would admit that one. But I do whatever I feel I should, I do and don't complain. I have many "skills and I will get by". These kids around here have "nothing". Nothing to back them. It's not just Roxann's kids, it's the kids of her very best friends too. Shawn (her best friends son) has skipped school 70-80 times this year. To me, he is a "smart kid" just fucking up now. He is on probation and the courts are involved.

To me, these kids just don't "get it". They haven't learned anything by my example. I haven't known any of them long.

Over "Spiced"... I'll spice your fucking asses......

Gary :)