It's nearly "6am" I can't really fall asleep. No worries people, I do this all the time. I am a 100% complete "night owl". I just woke to get something to "eat", and write while I do.

You have heard me talk "religion" on here. You've heard me talk alot of things. Many people call me an "Enigma". Which means "Something that can't be explained, Something Mysterious". I guess in some way's it's true, but everything I do makes "sense" to me in most ways. Oh by the way, I am complete sober.

Sexually, I don't have a problem "Biblically". I find it natural, so long as your not cheating on a "spouse", or out creating "kids" that won't be wanted or cared for by their parents. The below example, I feel was both "wrong" and "exciting" I could give "deeper" reasons why I feel this way, but that blog will come another day.

With that said, I "experiment" greatly with my own sexuality. I always have actually.

On to my point...

I actually find it a "good" thing for people to understand and "experience" their own sexuality. I'm gonna write an "example" (a true story) of one of my "escapades". Now in "Retrospect", it probably wasn't right. Only because I didn't know the lady. It was however one of the "greatest" sexual experiences I ever had. Now, I sure won't be "down" on you for "any" thing you do sexual. Just be safe, and don't be creating kids you don't want (or can't) care for.

Years ago, I started talking to this woman on the internet. We talked for a few months, and suddenly the talk became "sexual based". I never seen her pic, all I had was her description of herself. That's all she had of me.

One day it was "decided" (and I am not even sure how we came to this), that she would come over and we'd have sex. Sight unseen before this point.

It somehow became "further" decided. To make it a little more "exciting".. Since I had "real handcuffs", I'd throw the keys on the floor.. and handcuff myself to the "bed" where I had absolutely no way out if she didn't come over. Now since I kinda like women's lingerae, I decided to throw that in the mix too.

So there I was. I had already "handcuffed" my own self to the bed. I had no way out if she didn't show. I was wearing "lingerae". I had no idea if this person I never met before would come. If she didn't, I had no idea how long it would take someone to find me. If they did, I was handcuffed, gagged, and wearing lingerae. Yes, seems "weird" and your right. But still, this was me experimenting.

Well, she was supposed to be there in "2 hours". She didn't show. I "blindfolded" myself too but I could see a little out the bottom. I could kinda see the "clock". Another 2 hours went by. I was thinking "oh fucking chit", I'm stuck here! What am I gonna do??

It turned out to be one of the most "sexually" exciting days I ever had. The "waiting" the "anticipation", the "not knowing".

She showed up like "5" hours after I handcuffed myself. She came and "Screwed my brains out". I didn't even fully see her face till it was over.

Do I "regret it"? On many senses yes. I didn't even know the woman. Was it one of the "best experiences" I ever had. For damn sure it was. Was it "Biblically right"? No, I think God is kinda pissed at me over this one. Not for the "experience" in general. Just I didn't even know her.. I didn't know if she could get pregnant. Didn't know if she had a "disease" (I am cleared now, this was many years ago)

Sexual experiences should be "fun" for both in a couple. In a committed relationship. I fully agree with that. But you "should" be thoughtful and not be taking "risks" like I did. Nowadays, I'd never in a million years do the same. Too many things I didn't consider then. Still, to me it remains a "fond" memory. But that's only because "all that could've went wrong didn't". I just got "lucky", that's all.....

Gary