Red, if you think I give a "flying fuck" about what you think, you'd be wrong. The only reason I even respond, is to let "others" know how I think. How you think, means "nothing" to me. Despite that, I still like you.

You commented on one of my last blogs. So I want to explain this. Roxann has "two kids". They are 15 and 17. Now, it's a simple fact. I can ask them to do something, they "ignore". Roxann will yell at them. They will either "leave" or sit there and "ignore". They have had no direction. They are "gonna be fucked up" in life if nobody says nothing.

So "Red" to you, I am the "dick". No, I am not. Actually, what the grandparents and neighbors say is.. "Gary isn't harsh enough". They don't want me to be "as nice" as I am, the want me harsher. I think they ALL know I can be that way. And they want it more.

I'm just in a situation. So I am "laying it all" on the line. I have talked to "Roxann", the kids, neighbors. Things have to change. Fast like. I'll never leave Sebastian (as you mentioned in your last comment). I will however leave this place. All I am trying to do, is make things "Right".I really don't want to leave. I want changes. But I will if I have too.

I don't know what your thinking dude. I really don't. I can do things one of two ways. I could be complete "passive". Let her kids do what they want. I can be a "dick too", get down on them about everything. I try to be "IN THE MIDDLE". I don't want them hating me, nor do I want to see them complete "failures". I'll go either way, it's not my life.. it's theirs.. The only reason I am "how I am" is because I care.

Red?! Listen to this!! I have a "strong personality". VERY STRONG actually. Not much can back me down, but then again.. I pay attention to everything. I am looking at their side, her side, the neighbors side. All that. I want "best" for her kids. Right now, I feel I need to get a little "harsher". If I don't (and they are almost adults) They will be working "Burger King" (or something similar) for life.

BAD PARENTING?? Yep, probably. Not cause I am "too mean", cause I let them get away with too much. Things I know I could stop.

The other day, Jeremy got into a heated fight. I called him a "lier and a thief". "I HATE YOU GARY", he says. He says will run away. I say, "Go for it, I'll see you back soon". Once he REALLY see's what the world is about, he'll be back. He did take off. Came back. So we began talking. "Did you steal from me Jeremy"? His reply, and get this... "Yes I stole from you Gary, but it was only like 10 times" (his exact words). What about that other person (I say). "Yes I stole, but only a few times". Then "Jeremy" you are a thief to me. Do you want that "Label" for life?

I don't care what you think Red, I really don't. I am trying to give these kids some "direction". If you don't see it, you have a right to your "opinion". As for me.. You will NEVER find a day I don't "call it as it is". Personally, I'd rather see them "succeed" then fail. But hey Red, that's only my opinion...

Gary