You do have a "knack" for poetry Tim! You should publish them or sumpthin..
Pretty obvious mom and pop dropped you on your head a few times. That's ok.. seems like you are doing well. First time I seen your blog. Welcome to "MyBloggers"!!
On another note (while I am thinking on this subject), most that think they have have a computer full of viruses usually don't. Most often, it's a "memory" conflict. The DOS/Windows operating systems are very open ended. This means, everyone who writes a program, is trying to "grab" all the memory they can for their own program. People think of memory as like "1 thing", really there is dozens of types of memory. Video RAM, Actual RAM, Virtual RAM, and for older systems we had to deal with HMA (64K), Convential Memory (640K), Upper Memory Blocks, and really alot more than I could write here. The point is... The minute one program wants the same memory another wants.. your system WILL freeze. When I write programs, I don't know what they are doing, they don't know what I am either. So no real way around this.. I am just saying.. most think they have a "virus" but more often then not, it's a memory related issue.
Take care, gary
The best way to not get a "Virus", is to not open any junk mail. I tend to know ALOT about computer viruses. The reason, I program fluent in about 10 computer programming languages (C/C++, JAVA, BASIC A,- GW - Q, Visual C++, Assembly, many more). I was also the author of the only "Virus generation program" in existence that I know of. About 15 years ago, I made a program that would self generate a "virus".. the user would push some buttons, and decide what that virus was to do. It was a 2 year project. I did it to "learn, and never released it. The program could "complete" destroy a hard drive. It could take out system files (config.sys, autoexec.bat, all win .ini files.. anything really). I never wanted it released.. but it taught me alot as a programmer.
On your end, there are several things to worry about. No virus can be run, unless executed. You need to "Open" it before it can do anything. Not opening anything you worry about is the first step. Get some FREE or cheap anti-virus software. "Avast 4" is free (find on the net), and as good as any high priced software. The reason, there are two main ways a virus will infect your system. A memory resident virus is present all the time. Most any anti-virus software can detect it. What it will look for is some important file being altered. Like a ".sys, .ini, .exe, .com" or anything else that shouldn't be changed. It will halt your system. A signiture file, is basically a list of viruses that have been detected, and a known removal way. All anti-virus companies share this info. So, it really makes no difference if you pay "Norton" $80, or get Avast free. They will be exactly alike, except for user interface.
Virus types, are many. A Trojan Horse is basically a password stealing virus. A worm, will basically grow into other files and infect however the programmer created it to do. Again I will say, nothing can "execute" unless you "execute it". So avoid anything suspicious.
Anyway.. I am most always here.. if you ever have a question.. feel free to email me. gary
Yeah, best to send the "troops" that way... in the long run, saves a chitload on diapers..
Goodbye Bush! Good Riddance!!! This may surprise you all, but I am so happy to see the "daddy wannabe" Prick gone!!
I was starting to "wonder about you" Grump... At least now I don't have to "wonder'!
I did like "4" funerals this year alone. I know all that "sucks"!! Chill out Van, realize it "sucks" but is natural... Take care MAN.. "I love ya"!!
Gawd Damn... Santa is "Perceptive".....
My family really doesn't "fight". Maybe it's because we avoid eachother alot (no real clue why). We used to have some "big" Christmas parties, but we don't now. Some have moved away, some are close. Everyone can say their excuse, but I know the real reasons. We all LOVE eachother! We actually want to see eachother. The problem is, in my family we have "poor", and "well off". So nobody knows what to give (or even how to act). A $10 gift to a wealthy person will go in the basement. The "poor" person wanted to do something "nice", but really couldn't. The "wealthy" person could give any gift. But they don't want to do something, that would make the poor relative feel they did less.
I HATE CHRISTMAS!! TRUELY!!! I love my family, but hate all I know is going on in heads....
Sniff sniff... I never sent a flower.. but I did send a necklace, now you refuse to be friends
Whatever works
I know, it all sucks.. but "Hey" it's like Christmas time.. why not come over and drink a few beers... we can "sort" this crazy world chit after a 12 pack! No need to do it now
My first marriage, the divorce bothered me ALOT! Hurt me for years actually, but I finally got over it. My second marriage, I don't feel she was really ready. I don't feel she loved me, and am I am certain she had too much going on to be in any relationship. I am pretty much over "anything" that happened between me and either wife (or girlfriend between), but I can't say thoughts don't come up now and then.
Rena, was my first wife.. we were together 13 years. I loved her, but we were way different. At some point, the marriage failed. I still care for her.. but don't want to be with her. I hoped things would change (before she really committed to another) but they didn't. Now.. I care.. and that's about it.
My second marriage was to "Busymidmich" mom on here (Debbie). Actually, we are still married but neither wants a relationship. We will never be together. That one, I feel was a huge mistake. I know of her family problems, I know how lonely I was and wanted a relationship (Before I met her). In some ways, we were both in the same boat. We both married, when neither of us really were ready... Alot still needs to be resolved...
So what I can say... being single (separate and/or marriage) is complicated. You will go through alot mentally... ------------------------ Here goes! A series of related or unrelated lines, in no particular order!
It's a first Christmas. The first with my new family. The first without my ex.
I'm finding Christmas to be the hardest time of all to adjust to change.
I sooooo want to be happy and only happy and yet I've been fighting tears.
I've prepared for the holiday so well with all the gifts, decorations and food. ------------------------ GUESS WHAT?? You are like everyone else. We've all been through this. It sucks, I can say.. but things will get better!!!! Just "Hang in there Babe"!! Every feeling you have is "Natural"!!!
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