I don't think, anybody here has a "life" close to mine. I'm not gonna say I feel "mine is better" then anyone's. I won't say theirs is better either. To think of it "logically".. Living the way I always have, has "huge" benefits. Also it has "huge" problems. Living a life with a "normal job" has "Huge" benefits and problems as well.

I pretty much "disappointed" everyone in my family. I partied my ass off, I was extremely intelligent tho. There are "Millionaires" and such in my family. Also "major artists". The "money side" always expected me to do more. The "artist" side probably feels.. that's more "me" then being a "corporate" fuck.

I never went for the "corporate" thing. Despite "everyone and their brother" pushing my ass for it.

Three things "seeped" into my brain pretty deep. One would be the "Artist side". I know exactly how to "make chit cool", and I have got very good at it. The next would be the "millionare" (business side). I can work things out with "promoters" that nobody else could imagine. The "third" would happen to be "Just my personality". Every promoter that knows me, knows "I'll just come and be Gary". I'm exactly the "opposite" of everyone there. I am so "different" from most, that everyone "watches my every move". Works for me, all know it. Most every promoter wants me there, and I get a "top" spot all the time. I "draw people in I know". They know.

As far as "family", well the "millionare side" I feel doesn't think "crap" of what I've done. They don't see the "hundreds" of compliments I get in a show (Hell they never came to check it out). Every single show I do, I get over 100 compliments a day. I know this. They don't get "near" the compliments I do. All they see is this "They are buying new houses and boats", and I'm not.

With all that said: I've lived a pretty "free life". One of the "advantages" of living my way is this.. "I pretty much go where I want and be how I want". Of course there are some "rules", but for the most part I am "just myself" All the time really. I dress how I want, I act how I want. I'll drink a beer at a fair.. nobody will complain. I am a "draw", and they let me fly my own direction. I am "not rich", but I pay the bills. I live on a "Rollercoaster" really.

I "often" envy people in the (so called) normal jobs. They got insurance, a paycheck they can count on. If I get "sick", no clue where to turn. I don't know if I'll make $1000 a day next week, or go in the hole. They have some "security". I never had anything like that.

Your "job" and life may be somewhat "different" from mine... But if you think about it, it really isn't that "different. We're all doing the same. Just trying to "live" and support the family.

Never happen, but I'd like to change "jobs" with anyone for a week. Would make a good "reality" show I think.....

Gary :)