Being "Yourself" is a "HELL OF ALOT" harder, then not. I pretty much know this.

Do you all think it's "easy" for me.. when I write something "most won't agree with"? Really, it's not totally. Easier now, cause I been the same way decades. Actually, I don't worry much now.. but it took "way long" to get to this point.

Everyone wants some "acceptance". Now here's what brought me to blog about this.

When I was "young", I worried about what everyone thought. I go to "facebook" and I hear people my age "worried". I understand it so completely. They basically freak out, if someone didn't understand them,, or say something against them.

Here is "what" they don't understand yet. Being "yourself" is possibly the best thing you could do for yourself. When your young, naive,, like anything anyone says becomes a "huge deal". Now you won't tell your friends, but it's a huge deal. In their/your mind or whatever.

Personally, I know whatever I say,, I'll gain more people then lose. I've known that for years, but really I don't care anymore. I pretty much "talk" however I want. Win some, lose some. I don't care.. lol.

My advice... "always be cool"! See someone "broke down", be the one that helps. But always "Be yourself too"! Who fucking cares what anyone thinks, if you know you are doing right?

Personally, I have no problem calling someone a "dick" if they are being one. But also, when someone is being "cool" I'll be the first to praise them. If I called someone a "dick" at a show, and they suddenly need help. I'll be first there. It's about doing "what is right" mostly, but also still being strong and yourself.

I am rarely (if ever) messed with these days. Sure "Red" gives me some crap in blogs, but I am talking "real life". I am "completely direct".. I am very forward. I learned one thing this life. People only mess with you, when they think they can.

So I am listening to some on Facebook... freaked out or whatever. I think to myself.. need a backbone. What others say really bothers them.

I know what I did this weekend. Some vendor asshole came in late to the show. Blocked my booth for hours. I lost sales. Didn't piss me off really then. I was like "so what". He's got alot to unload. It's how he dealt with things later (read my previous blogs). All I knew.. for a fact.. I'd deal with the situation. He was a dick. I purposely put my van in his spot at teardown. Basically, so he couldn't tear his display down. I promise, I did this to "piss him off". I am certain he knew too. I so wanted to see how he would deal with it. I wanted him to see how I would deal with it. I knew half the vendors in the show anyway. He did this "twice" actually.. and bitched about things I really did't do wrong. Ok dude, be the dick all through the show,, lets see the end. Caused me NO problems, just gave some "dirty looks".. lol. He waited for me to pack up.

What he doesn't know.. I would've helped him greatly. Better spots, better shows. He wanted to be a "dick", I returned the favor. He can complain to anyone... I won't lose the show,, he will.

Be yourself! Be afraid of nobody! Do what is right. Pays in the longrun.

I really wish some of my "old friends" that are now on facebook,, realized what I think.

Gary