This blog may be different from some others I've read. I've heard blogs described as "on-line" journals. I gotta tell ya, I thought that was a stupid idea! Now, I'm gonna do just that. I'm going to see if I can figure out what's going on with me, why I'm the way I am, and what I can do if anything to change some things in my life. Maybe someday, I'll get answers to questions that just keep spinning around in my head with nowhere to go.
   Let me introduce myself. My name is William. You can call me Will.
    I grew up with an alcoholic father and a religious critical mother. I believe I was emotionally abused by both. Let me state emphatically that I'm NOT blaming either of them for anything. We grow up and we make our own choices. Mine were mostly poor one's.
    The first time I ever took dope I was 16. I had recently had my heart broken by my best friend and the girl I loved very much. They eventually got married. I was feeling all sorry for myself and another "friend" asked if I wanted to try a hitof mescalin. It was so small, about the size of a sacrin tablet. I thought, "this little thing" can't hurt me and maybe it WILL make me feel better.
`I took it and laughed and laughed for literally hours....at nothing particularly..just any little thing. That was the beginning of my love affair with dope that lasted roughly 20 years. It stripped me of everything. Even today, although I know I wouldn't be the me I am today without those years, there are so many "secrets" in my life that I wonder if it still is not having a negative effect on me. Hence this blog. If this all goes according to the plan I have laid out in my head, I will reveal things here that if I told you in "real life" I would have to kill you...:)
  Some of you may know me, I blog under another name, have fun trying to figure out who that might be, I will never tell you. I've met many fun and interesting people here and on other blog sites but just like in my real life I've only shared snippets of who's on the "inside."
   I've decided there is a lot of junk on the inside and I'm gonna try and throw some "trash" out. Sometimes it'll be funny, sometimes sad, but I assure you, it will always be true.
   See you soon....or not. :)
                                                    Will