I've had quite a string of good days! I love it when that happens, often and sadly, because I've bitten on the "Bi Polar" apple, I am forced to wonder if this isn't the "manic" phase of the disease. It's kind of a two edged sword to go see someone (head shrink-er) because it shakes your confidence in yourself. If I'm down, its the low cycle if I'm up its the high. Good grief, could I possibly be "normal?"
I'm not saying back "in the day" I wasn't "crazy" but I WAS on dope after all, and I think if your on dope, YOUR CRAZY!
Today, life is good. It could certainly be better, but so could yours probably. I think this site was one of my better ideas. I think a lot about what to write, here and at the other blog I write. I reject much more than I write. I am my own editor most of the time and I'm rather harsh with myself.
Bottom line, I think about things that I've struggled hard NOT to think about on this site. Ya know what? It wasn't all bad. Yes, I was a dope fiend for a while and that's certainly not good. Did I learn a few things along the way, things even YOU might not know...you betcha! If I had it all to do over and knew what I know now, would I do it different? YES, wouldn't YOU?
The more I think, and write, the more I think we are all basically the same "model." It's just what we do with our "lemons." What do you think?
