Honey girl, every mother in the world has moments, sometimes days, of feeling like you do. I wish I could offer you respite care, which is what you need. You need a break from your kids!

Two suggestions, possible three I like the first one best.:

Tell the kids that mommy needs a time out, and not to come bother you, because it would result in something very bad, Then go to your bedroom and lock the door. Take a nap, read a book, or just breathe in and out dloely, carefully, mindfully.

Call a church and ask if someone could volunteer to be a once a week grandmother, or Call social services for your county or village and ask about respite care for moms. Be careful whom you tell you are thinking about child abuse. The different government agencies snatch kids out of homes for that sentence.

Take care of yourself or you won't be able to care for anybody else.
Praying for you, Stephy

Sorry it's so difficult. I truly feel for you... wish I could help or offer some insight.

Aw, Tracy! Raising kids is not easy. We all have had them totally embarrass us when we were trying to take care of another matter.But hang in there! I think the health club will be a great way for them to burn off some of that energy,

What is ASD?

I am sorry you are feeling this way tracy and I wish I could say something to help you. I can tell you that kota just drains my energy when he gets in his moods and I feel like screaming at times too. a break is all I ask for. I hope that things get better for you.