I have decided to kick this depression that has had me in its grip for the biggest part of my life. The last two day's I have decided to make the changes to the things that get me down.

I changed my slimming club from "slimming world" to "weight watchers", and I rejoined at the club I was a member off years ago. The club is quite expensive as I have made the children members too, but when you break the monthly payment into weekly amounts, I realized that we were wasting that same amount of money on junk food and booze.

Life can get very depressing looking at the same four walls day in day out, trying to stop the kids fighting and stopping them from slamming doors and making too much noise. By spending more time at the health club I will not have to deal with that. Alexander will have to learn that the club is fun and that he will have to go and do things without me, and that I will be back for him later. There are also fit clubs he can be part of now, plus use of the swimming pool.
Richard will be over the moon when I tell him that we have re joined. I think that Paul my husband will see the benefits too, surely the kids will be calmer after using up their energy else where?

I am looking forward to this new phase in my life.