Wow... I have no clue what to all say, I just know I have been hanging out with this guy for a few months now, ever sin he has started working at caseys and I have got to say its been fun.. and the messed up part is that he is friends with my friends and that is the crazy thing.. about it.. and the messed up thing after I found that out and after my friend and I left caseys one night I told her that he was fuckin hott and what not.. this had to of been the second night or so he was working, and that was when I found out that they were friend and what not or her boyfriend was friend with him or whatever you want to call it lol.. well any who.. after all that with working with him and then hanging out with him I got to know him really good I guess, the funny thing about this whole thing is when we first started to hang out and everything everybody would tell me what he would do and what he was really like to try to get me to stop hang out with him so I wouldn't get hurt I'm sure but I'm sorry to say whatever they would say or do didn't stop me from talking to him or hang out with him.. I know at one point and time we did have this little talk about all this stuff that I was hearing and what not and then he told me that he would of like to go out with me at some point and time but then he didn't think that was going to happen after we had that talk and I told him you never know and whatever else I said.. then after that I have no clue what was all said.. but I think after we had are little talk I don't think we talked for about two weeks or so I have no clue why but we just didn't talk for a while but then my friend wanted to hang out one night and before she came and got me she told me that he was going to be over at there place to and I was like ok and what does this matter and shes like he told me that you two havent been talking for like two weeks or so, so he thought you were pissed at him or something.. and I was like no what would I have to be pissed at him about.. so then we got that all cleared up and after all that we were fine and ever sin then we have been talking and hang out again.. but any ways this is what has been really getting me lately.. the last few weeks or the last month or so.. we have been hanging out a lot lately and we have been talking a lot more lately and I'm sorry to say its kinda scary for some reason.. lol.. yeah we would talk and hang out before but not like this.. if we hung out it was maybe once a week or here or there but now its been like two or three times or whatever the last week or so and its like what in the world.. and we have been talking about all kinds of stuff.. and thats been kinda scaren me but then again its like what?!? well see hes been telling me the things that hes done in the past and told me about the things that hes done lately and its like ya what about it... and then the one day out of the blue he asked me why I still hang out and talk to him, and I was like what and hes like well all the other girls that I know I hang out with and when they find out what I have done they get pissed off at he and tell me to fuck off and what not, and I told him well sry I'm not a cold harted bit**, i told him something else a long that line to but who knows what that was right at this min.. lol and i also thought and told him something a long this line, because of the fact that I know about all the things that he has does or did whatever you would like to call it.. for one hes single there for he should be able to do whatever he wants and me not get pissed off about it for one we are not dating so why should i get pissed off about it, I think I also told him something else, but theres something that I didnt tell him and I'm sure I should have told him, theres just something about him that just makes my day when ever I'm around him it just feels like I can talk to him and when ever we are hang out he just knows how to make me laugh I have no clue what thats about, and thats kinda crazy bc that dont happen that often anymore when I met someone they cant make me laugh everytime I'm hang out with them and while we are at work.. theres just something about him... and just to say I know my friend has been telling me that we act like her and her man do when they are together and its like no we dont.. its like dont tell me that.. bc i wont know what to say.. and its like I have other ppl at work telling me that we are dating all the time bc they see the way we act around each other when we work with each other and the way we talk to each other plus we are always talking about hanging out with eachother to, and one time I have got told that we should get married and then again tonight I got asked when we were going to get married and its like what the hell.. and its like his brother inlaw even talks to my mom about me when he sees her its like what the hell.. its kinda creepy... lol and the messed up think is that we think to much a like thats kinda cool but really scarey... because every damn time I'm laughing he knows damn well what I'm laughing about I'm sure.. so its like what the hell.. and tonight my friend was text me while she was done at caseys I think and she was talking to him, and she told me I had to go back down there bc he was boring and i asked her how and she just told me that she didnt know and that he was telling her on how he was really HYPER earlier and she thought i gave him sugar but the funny thing is i didnt and i told her oh yeah that was bad!! but i have to say it made my day and she said omg wow and i asked her what, then i guess he was tryin to tell her about the sond he was singing today and i tried to asked her what one because ther was a lot of songs he was singing when i was still at work but i guess he couldnt remember i have to say it was fun at work tonight lol and she was telling me that hes something else lol wow thats what she said, and i told her ya i know and i kinda love it haha, and she said lol and i said what? but its true! and she said its cute lol, I asked her why she said that and she said she didnt know she just did, then she told me seeing us two standing next to eachother was like her and her boyfriend standing together and all i could think is dont tell me that.. lol and i told her ya whatever i dont belive you, then she siad why not, and then she told me you dont wanna belive it lol your scared to try to date him arent you, then i told her no im not, i'm just not gonna be the one to ask... you know me... i would say more but im gonna shut up... haha then shes tried to aske me why i was going to shut up, and the only reason why i told her i was going to shut up was because i didnt know if she was still down at caseys and I didnt know if she was going to tell him every thing i told her and what not if you know what i mean, and its like if he wants to go out with me then he can ask me out.. sry to say.. yeah I would go out with him.. oh yeah another thing that has been creepin me out not just the fact that we have been hanging out more then what we use to and the fact that we talk more then what we did, its the fact that he asked me if i wanted to get a place with him and split the rent with him, and then the next few days after that he was talking to are friend they were talking about how she wants her boyfriend to go to school and they he was saying that he wants to go to school and that they could get a place together but then she said that he needs her, then he said well why dont we all just movie to sioux falls then and i know stef does so then we could just all move together and just split the rent and go from ther and its like what the hell is going on with him.. first hes asking me to move in with him and then hes telling me about all this stuff and then he gets the idea about all of us moving to sufu and we hang out more and talking more and what not and whatever kinds of stuff you would like to call it.. i have no clue what to think anymore.. bc hes talkin to me just about all the damn time and hanging out all the damn time and its like what the hell.. and i told my friend this and she told me that and she told me maybe hes trying to test your trust to see if he can trust you and all that stuff and what not and then maybe go from there who knows... if thats the case thats crazy im sorry to say because i never thought nothing would happen between us for some reason.. then to told it all off the one night when him and i were talking about some of the stuff on why i still hang out with him and talk to him, i told him that some ppl were tryin to tell me that he going to hurt me really bad and that i needed to stop hang out with him but im srry to say i can take care of myself and then he told me that he would never hurt me and if he did he asked me if i would ever tell him, but im sorry if i knew what he did that the beganing when i frist started to hagn otu with him how could i have got hurt by him lol other then that how could he have hurt me in any other way.. and im sorry to say i think its hard to hurt me anymore.. i feel like i have no feelings anymore for some reason.. lol i have no clue why but thats the way i feel.. but then again I can say that bc i know i have feelings for this guy and if he asked me out im sure i would say yes but then again i would have to know if hes is done doing the things that he has done if you know what i mean... but what can i say... who knows maybe things will work out.. maybe i will find out sooner or later... and whatever it is.. i hope its good... all i know whenever i'm with this guy im happy and that is crazy i have not been like this in a long as time... ya i have been happy but not as happy as i am when i'm around him i have to say that is the craziest thing that i have seen yet this year.. lol oh well all i can say is just wait and see what happens... lol.. well i better get to bed... and we can just hope... for luck... : )