He should be home soon!!!! I have no clue what I am going to do that is all I'm going to say lol, all I know I can wait, because I know he should be home soon, as of what I was told he should be home here in a few weeks or so... so I can't wait, he is the one and only person that I want to see right now and want to be around for some reason, and I think its because I have been away from him for so long and it kills me and I think its time that we can finaly get spend time together again and have fun like friends do and what not, I'm not saying that we are going to end up going back out like I would like to but what could I say that only takes time and Im not for sure what he want's yet lol, but all I can say I can't want to spend time with the person that I have been only waiting to see and hang out with for ever it seems like and what not, and after my birthday I hope he's going to let me move in with him, because I want out of my dads place, well I do but I don't, well I love to stay with my mom and dad but it kills me to have to go between places and it feels like they fight over me well they dont really fight over me it just feels like if im not at there places when im at the other ones place it feels like the other one is all down in depressed because Im not staying with them and all that stuff, i just dont know what to say about it, so I just think it would be better for me to move out on my own, so I hope after my birthday I can move in with the dork but Im sure I will have to talk it in to him lol, and for some reason my mom thinks we are going to get back together ya thats what I want but other people dont for some reason I dont know why but whatever do you think im going to do what other people what me to do, I dont think so that was me in the past well kinda, im a different person and I do the things I want to and always will but what am I talking about I have always done the things I have wated to do lol, but its different now sin im not doing the things i use to do i think, i just hope things work out and maybe even get better then what they were once before, all I know.. my littel buddy better not get home on feb 14 thats all I ask, because I hate that day more then anything and if he gets home that day I could see him coming and finding me and scaring that crap out of me for some reason, because he knows how bad i want to see him and hang out with him and what not if you know what I mean, its been just about a yr sin I have last seen him so yeah Im going to want to see him more then anything when I think/know I still love him.. because come on when I still wear that ring he gave me two yrs ago and freak out when I dont have it on you would think I still love him or something!! I just cant wait to see him and get to spend time with him and get to have lots of fun with him lol...