(I worte this the other night and just didnt get to finish it or post it so it wasnt based on last night, just to let you know)
ya ya ya ya ya ya, I know but what can I say, I have though about this over and over and over again for the last few months but what can I say, I have looked for guys around here or at least met some and get to know them and what not, but the thing is I can't stop thinking about that one that I just love more then anything, no matter what happens to me he is always going to be there, it seems like he is the only one I can talk to about anything, and yes he may be a dick to me some times but whatever but what can I say that is every guy for you lol, then tonight I sent him a text say hey lover boy then the next thing I know he is calling me and calling me names and all that kind of stuff and what not and just giving me crap and I was just giving him crap right back saying you don't like me and what not and hes like ya I dont and then I was like then why did you call me then if you dont like me haha, but we talked on the phone for like 2hrs and I have not talked to him on the phone for 2hrs in a long time and I thought it was night, but I will just have to say there is just something about that guy that I still love to death, I have no clue what it is, I think its the fact that I can talk to him about anything and everything his there for me when Im down he can tell when somethings wrong, he can give me crap and wont upset me like it will with other girls like if other guys give there girlfriends crap and it will upset them he can give me crap and it wont up set me, it will just make me laugh why because I do it right back to him lol, and its like if he calls me fat or a cow or something stupid like that it never puts me down it just makes me laught and I just try and think of something I could call him, and see what else he could come up with lol, thats what kind of people we are lol, I dont know what it is about us two, and when we were together once before we really never got into fights so that was good but what was the point when we never had anything to fight about lol, I think or I should say that he's the guy that I have been looking for the whole time but what am I talking about I have had him once before and lost him, but just maybe I will get him back, well thats the only thing I can hope for because he is the only one that can really make me happy even thou he is a dick to me some times lol, I want to ask him if he still care about me but I just dont know if I should do that or not because I'm not for sure what he would say or not because who knows about him lol, I'm sure he still cares abotu me but then again I just wont know until he gets home and talks to me about everything and work things out thats the only thing I could thing of, I just hope every thing works out because I still love him with all my heart and would do anything to get him back lol, i just don't know what it is about that guy but there just something there about him that makes me there person that I am and he can always make me feel better and thats what I love, theres not every many people out there that can do that, and it seems like he is the only one that can do that, but what can I say.. I love him and want him back like no onther, and lets just hope he wants me back to.. I'm sure theres more I could add but who knows I cant think of anything else right now cuz it feels like I'm dead to the world.. lol