Let me preface this by saying I don't want anyone to freak out or get upset with me...
I'm not feeling well. I haven't been feeling well for several weeks. But I can't really say why.
When I stand up, often times I get dizzy or light headed. I just feel weird most of the time. Like I got this weird feeling in my gut. Like a tingle inside me. Sometimes I feel like my heart might be racing too fast, too.
I can't really put it into words but I *think* my blood pressure might be too high or something.
Yes, I know I should go to the doctor but I don't know what to tell her. And until I can tell her something specific, I really don't want to go because I already owe $7K from the fucking D&C I had to have.
UGH.
But there's more to it because it's not that I'm not feeling well... it's that I'm AFRAID something is wrong. Isn't Stroke like the number 1 killer to women or something? Are there symptoms to a stroke before actual stroke symptoms?
UGH.
Anyway. Yeah. That's my confession. :( I'm pathetic.