Well where to start well the beginning I guess. I met Adrian about 1 year ago while I was working for Thomas Cook as a holiday rep in Greece, oh hang on a second thats not the beginning well I had better go back a bit further hummmm how far should I go back, I would have to go back to when I was 16 3 days after my birthday I moved out of my Gran's and set up on my own and I lived alone until I met Paul who if there is a god will be floating face down in a river somewhere not that I'm bitter or anything. Well as you can imagine living on your own from 16 is difficult and you become very independent and after being with Paul for several years buying a house thinking about settling down he decides to leave taking with him my Independence and my dignity and forcing me into bankruptcy. So i start hanging round with some people the wrong people if you like who introduced me to a world of drink drugs and party's and needless to say the spiral of self destruction didn't last long I couldn't cope with the hang overs. So I move to Greece get sorted working as a holiday rep love the job love the country fab weather and just starting to rebuild my self confidence when I met Adrian not in Greece but online. I know many of you will judge me for meeting someone online but thats not the issue here, anyway we meet talk and get to know each other and I agree to come home and live with him and we are very happy for a while until just before Christmas when his ex partner and his sister starts making problems for us which resulted in me going home to my Gran's for a week until we sorted things out now I'm back and we have been OK for a couple of months but now I have started to feel really depressed I'm currently not working although I'm not lazy I am looking for work but there is just nothing out there. I have my knitting to keep me occupied but I feel as though I'm missing something I have all my friends on the Internet but apart from Adrian and his mum I have no one to talk to or go out with. also I really want to live in my own place again with Adrian but he is reluctant to leave home I mean for gos sake he is 42 I think he should cut the apron strings some time and take a plunge into real life. Am I being unreasonable or unrealistic to be honest I don't know anymore I really don't know what to do or who to turn to and I am on the Verge of leaving Adrian and starting out for myself again but I love him so much but I need to do something. I don't want anyone to think this is just a post for sympathy I would just like to know what other people would do in the situation.