Wow i just don't know how some do it.Stay so postive in a negative world.By that i don't mean the "world"i mean in my world.I try to stay postive cause first it's healthy,my kids need it(deserve it).Yet when you talk to people and everything is constantly gloom and doom it starts to rub off on you.I swear.I can't shake it lately.Someone close to me is never ever happy,basically has nothing to look forward to just overall misery.I can take it most of the time if i get a break from it for a day or two.You know what i mean.Cleanse myself so to speak.Pray,get it together and go back with positive energy to give.But,it's just been really heavy lately.So much so that it's broke me down a bit.I need something to get over it.Somethings got to give.I need to get back to the old me soon for me and my family.I can't walk away from this situation.I talk and talk about everything will work out.There will be brighter days.It's so hard to talk to someone that has been there and done that a hundred times to hear them talk.Never giving an inch.Well when they see i'm reaching my limit and getting frustrated they give in.I think let me hear what i want just til dark or in the morning and then the "end"is near again.It starts all over again.It is so tiring.