Wow it's still here. All these years later. I've forgotten how to blog. Yesterday i went to where I grew up and the mountain, then the grave site. I needed to I also took my 9 the old daughter. It was good a little sad but good. It's been 2 yrs. Seems like yesterday and a lifetime. Both. How is that possible? I surely miss her. I don't miss the temper tantrums fussing. My mom was literally my life at the end. Well all my life, like a boyfriend who wouldn't let you go even when it's toxic...I wish I could understand why she felt like she needed a man not for financial by no means(she was a workaholic) but mentally? She would always pick the bad ones. There hope ones she didn't want. Who knows. Anyway I'm going to try to blog again. I've stopped journaling everything need it....