You know, I've been thinking about why it is that what we need in life has to do typically with 'time', 'faith', 'dreams', 'waiting'. These are things I can't see, can't touch, can't demand to start or stop. Why is it that they have so much bearing in our lives?

Several weeks ago when I was really distraught, someone said to me, 'Let time heal your heart.' Personally, I wanted the one who hurt it to fix it and care for it again. Not time. I wanted time to GO BACKWARDS, not heal me. I didn't want to wait for time to heal me so I'd be 'better'.

I also remember hearing something like, 'Let nature run its course, now is the time to wait.' Wait?! Dude! I was in pieces, shards of my heart, my relationship everywhere...wait?!! You're telling me, Ms. I-Don't-Have-Patience, to wait?!!!?? As if!! I want action! No waiting and having faith for me!

'Have faith in yourself ...' I remember that too from weeks back. Faith in myself...sounds like I'm some kind of egotistical chick who bullies her way through life. (Hey, maybe I do need to be more like this! lol). Having faith in myself wouldn't have fixed what I was going through. If it would've, it would've been the perfect dream!

'Keep dreaming, keep your chin up!' Okay...I kept my chin up, the tears still ran like rivers down my neck, into my hair & onto my shirt. That didn't help much (yes, I know what the phrase 'really means'!). Keep dreaming. At that point, why? It seemed to be done, finito, different. Why dream about something that will never be the same?

So fast forward to now. Several weeks past the hurt I just spoke of. (It still does hurt a bit yet...love is worth it, I don't care what people say. If it's real inside of you, it's worth it regardless).

After all my cynical chatter about all these catchy encouragements, I began to realize that I actually was still dreaming, being hopeful, having faith and time of course, was inevitably at work.

Still, my question remains, how can these things have so much influence and 'power' (for lack of a better word) in our lives? I think it's because they're natural. Time happens, whether you want it to or not. Faith is hope...a believing, a wanting, like dreams/dreaming...even the hardest hearted people in the universe have this to some degree or another. It's part of being a person. Waiting is inevitable, there is nothing I can think of that you never have to wait for ... we can't snap our fingers and have everything as we want/need it in a flash. People who say they don't have faith aren't honest.

Everyone has hopes & dreams. Even if they seem unattainable. My hopes & dreams are big, they're real, they're very personal & they give me a happiness inside that I can't explain. I have them not just for myself, but for those I care for as well. Time will bring them to fruition, waiting will have to take a part in that as well. Applying the faith I have towards those dreams will also help. Applying myself, not hardening my heart, with my allies: time, faith, dreams & waiting...great things are on the horizon!

(So did I just answer my own question[s])? heh