I had a realization of sorts while I was trying to relax the other evening. Sorting through the stages I thought I've gone through in my life, I realized I have a rather wild side to me that emerges in a strong way when I'm looking and longing for something that seems unattainable.

I don't want to get real detailed (sorry), but I have to say I'm surprised by what I've done during those times now, looking back. It's like I know what I did, etc., but I can't believe I did it & it seemed so effortless. Guess it's part of me that I hindered, just to release when I felt "safe" to?

I'm sure that to some degree, a similar instance is true for everyone, but in my mind that was developed to be narrow, my past haunts a little as "unacceptable".

You know, in saying that, I kind of laugh inside...here I am, judging myself (you're your own worst critic, right?)...oy.

Summarizing, what I decided is certainly, the past is the past & it might not be "ideal", but it all is a part of who you are, like it or not, love it or not. It all exists somewhere.

So I'm gunna embrace it & not hang my head like I had previously about it. I yam what I yam & I have a life filled with acceptance and love so I'm just going to get over the guilt I put upon myself and stand tall.

Afterall, everyone needs to let their wild side show sometimes!