I probable shouldn't write this blog, but I will. It will be long.. bear with it. I feel I am very "truthful" here, but alot I don't outright say. What I say depends on what I am thinking at the time.

The life I've lead, is not "overstated" (on my part). If anything, I say "less then real" not more. But I ALWAYS put the "main" thoughts into everything.

I've said before I've been hospitalized 5 times for "Motocross accidents". I have "ruptured my spleen", I've spent so long in the "Hospital" I needed to relearn to walk. I went down to 99 lbs. Not to mention, all the other accidents.. broken ribs, feet, hands, and other parts...

I really couldn't count all my major accidents. My "Spleen" accident was the worse. Nobody thought I would live "but I did" (ask my parents.. lol).

I totaled 7 cars. This was back in the 80's. Yes we lived a little different then. Some was "drinking and driving" some was just being stupid (going 80-100 mph) down a road, and slamming on the brakes to spin the car around. I PROMISE, you won't meet a person that knew me then, that would say I wasn't the "wildest" around..

I had two DUI's. I am very not proud of them. The first, I was at a party.. and I was accused of something I didn't do. I was asked to leave the party (in my truck) ran off the road into a tree, and had the living chit beat outta me,, by 4 huge dudes. My truck smashed, they beat the hell outta me.. Took my wallet.. I was able to get it out, and drive to the hospital. Got my 1st DUI that day.. 1 block from seeking help. DUI Charges were later. Then later one of them came to my town.. and he had 30 people wanting to kill him. His car was surrounded, and his daughter and wife was there. I stopped "Everyone", I am "very respected" in a "crazy life sense"..

2nd DUI
I swore off drinking and driving, and I didn't for 12 years (not even once). But one day, me and wife #1 had a problem. We was gonna divorce, and It "flipped me out" (and I admit). She worked 1 mile away at the "Shell Gas station". I left her, and went to a friends 2 miles away. I suddenly decided to go "talk to her" cause I loved her (and always will in a way). I left our place to see her, and got into a 30 mpg accident. The dude came out from his driveway (no lights on, no insurance.. a biker but in a truck), and I hit him. Well, I was drunk.. very.. It really wasn't a bad accident, but what transpired had an effect on both. I went to jail, he was trying to kick my ass.. and was sentenced to "major anger management classes".. eventually I was "sued by him, eventually I won. The details can be deep.. yes I was in the wrong, but he was too. I faced 15 years in Prison. I had a court order to pay him like $6000 additional, to the $20,000 he got from insurance. I fought it, won.. and no "out of pocket money" (cept $356 more to lawyer). I met the dude later "In person", gave him alot of necklaces.. he knows I just had a "fuck up day, and he did too".. all cool now...

TODAY!!

Today, I can honestly say I am pretty calm and cool. I don't "drink and drive", I don't cause problems. I've spent years in Biblical study (all religion really), and I basically want to be a good guy. I always felt I was a decent guy, just some thought I wasn't. I do feel.. most that really know me would say I am..

I live FREE. Not many can do that. Not many can feel they are "free", because they worry about others thoughts. I don't.. not really.. but kinda we all do....

I had 7 seizures like 3-4 years ago. All when I was down in Florida. All got me transported to the "ER". They don't know what caused them.. They said maybe "alcohol" withdrawl.. but I doubt that. I drink the same here, as I did there. I'd say heat and dehydration.. but hey, I am not a DOC, and can't afford the real testing they want. All I know is I've always been the same.

Nowadays, I drink everyday (well I did before too). Not alot by my standards.. I like a little buzz. I don't go out, and I am completely functional. I don't drink till Roxann is here to watch "Sebastian" (cept for maybe 1-2 beers). I have done this all my "Adult life", trust me.. I am "cool", and paying attention. Trust me, most won't know I was drinking if I was.

Roxann doesn't know this. For the "Past 20 years", doctors have been warning me about my "pancreas". She doesn't know everytime I was hospitalized, and doesn't know "EVERY" single time they warned me about my "Pancreas". 20 years ago they told me I'd die soon, they say that today. I'm still here, but really... I don't worry....

I am "Extremely literate". I read more then anyone... I read religion, politics, and even health.. I'll talk with anyone about anything.

I'll outlive all ya.. maybe.. LOL.. but if I don't... so what....

Gary :)