You probably don't see this in blogs. I understand why. Blogs to me are a way to "vent", say thoughts. I feel that's what they are for.

In person, I am like one of the "calmest" and "quietest" people you will meet. I'd rather "listen then talk" anyday. Yelling is super rare with me. If you want to know the truth,, I really don't like "talking to people alot". I do, but rather avoid it.

I have another side too. If something "really" happens to upset me. It doesn't matter how "big", or who they are. Chances of stopping me, are like "Nill". I don't like this trait of mine, just I have it.

My son is over for the "weekend". I love my son! He is nearly 18. We got to talking about "alot", and I sure as hell don't agree with him. He has been with his mom last 3 years or so (before I raised him myself). I find his mind "totally screwed up".

Derek, is one of the smartest (factual) people you would ever meet. Far better then you, I promise. At 3, he knew every single car type in existence. He would see a car, and say "That's a 1991 Corvette ZR1 with Yokahama tires". Not just a "Corvette". And he did it on every single car.

Derek is "Autistic"...

Derek can "out spell" anyone here. He was on TV for things like this alot.. I would go on.. but that goes beyond the point I am trying to say. He is "smart", super smart. My IQ is like 130-150 (depends when I had it tested). His I know is "way higher".

What Derek doesn't have, is (the way I call it) Relational Logic. Derek has a "near photographic" memory. If he hears or reads "anything" he will remember 100%. He just can't sort all the information he holds.

Well, is is almost 18 now. We got into a huge argument. He is an adult, and I feel I can talk free to him.

Right now, he is convinced "he is a communist". He is convinced, "if you don't speak in tongues, you go to hell". He is convinced "China has the best system in the world, and only the USA supreses anyone. His plans are, to move to "Cuba" which he considers the best place in the world.

So we "argued". I am like "Derek!!!!" Your gonnna be rowing a boat to "Cuba" and pass 500 boats coming from Cuba to the USA. You'll be the only American going that direction. Derek! There is a "reason" they want out"!

"I don't care dad". It's all "American propangada".. Yes they are poor, but I'd rather live poor then under our system.

Derek now speaks and writes "Russian" fluent. Self taught. He can mostly write and speak "Chinese" now too. Self taught.

He quit "school". His mom let him do this. One of the "smartest kids" in the entire state, is now a "Highschool dropout".

I got "pissed". Let him know what I thought. He took off several times today. I didn't chase him down. Figured he'd come back. He did. He is almost an adult. He won't agree with me. He reads politics constant (even out of school). But his dad (me) sure will not say I agree.

I think his "Pee Brained" mom, and her stupid cult church has messed with his head.

He came back.. we "hugged". "I love you dad", "I love you too Derek". He went off to bed saying, "When I come back from Cuba", I'll let you know how much better it is there. Will you believe me then "Dad"? Yes son.. then I will.. for now.. I know you are wrong.