This post is just about my past. Things I think about. Things so you know me better as a person.

Most here that read my blogs, know I been through alot. This post is not about that. It's not about saying what I did or didn't, it's not anything besides letting you know my life. rather, my "THOUGHTS through my life". Reasons why I did what I did, and what guided me.

I spent today watching "motocross" videos. Every video I could find from 1980-1990. To me, those were the important years. I've raced like 20 years, but 80-90 was everything. I knew every stat on every racer. I can tell you who won where those years.

Those were the years I was "good". I am not lying, I was very good. I made the same mistakes some other racers did. I got stupid as hell.. I got cocky, and going fast and wanting to look like a "bigshot" killed my dreams. Talent I had, brains I didn't. You can ask people from my past (that was there).. I was one fast, and crazy mutherfucker.. lol.

I went through a serious of major accidents. Five were really bad. Now the pic above, is where I Ruptured my spleen. I almost met God personal on that. I had to re-learn to walk and chit. In all accidents, I don't know all bones I broke. Lots tho.. lol.

This post however isn't about that. It's about what led me to live that way. Still drives me today, but different. When I was a kid (elementary school/middle school) I was "picked on".

I was picked on by like "everyone" as a kid. Snuggies, teasing, all that crap was daily. I decided to change it. I have always had natural talent at things, and I used it. I was into "dirtbikes" and I did all I could to be the best at them". I knew, didn't matter how hard they hit me, bigger they are harder they fall. I got my ass beat much, but soon went from the "bottom" to the top. That is in terms of how popular you are. Basically I changed alot, and it took alot of risk.

I look now, and think most of these great racers, Evel Knievel, Bob Hannah, most all really have a story. Why they did, what they did. Mine was simple. At first, all I wanted was to "NOT" be picked on when young. I found I loved riding dirtbikes, and then I got "more and more" daring. I had a natural talent, and used it to the max. Maybe why most of them did too. I don't know.

Two of my favorite riders are now paralyzed. Danny "Magoo" Chandler, and "David Baily". I've met both, and both were super hot in the mid 80's. Great riders,,, "Google them"... take a look.

I loved my motocross years. To me, more then anything. I started because I liked it, I got "daring and stupid" because I needed to prove a point I guess. I am alive, and in reality I wouldn't trade it for anything.

I enjoy those years... and I think about them alot really. One day maybe, I can shoot you some pics of then (20+ yrs ago).. I have them, in storage..

Gary :)