...still awake at almost two in the morning? Yeah, it probably has something to do with the cup and 1/2 (x lg cups to boot) of Timmys that I've had. The coffee, coupled with the fact that I have no me/alone time since I'm doing this alone; I believe I simply enjoy the quiet. So I stay up all night so I can soak it in and hope that some of it carries over into the morning.
...still having complete full-blown panic attacks when I leave my house and risk the chance of seeing him? Tonight we had to drive past his work. The girls were in the back, chanting that they wanted to stop and see him while I sat behind the well and did my birthin' baby breathing, praying that he wasn't outside. Thankfully, he wasn't.
...still awake at almost two in the morning? Because I can't stop taking sips of the Timmy's coffee. And because I enjoy the peace and the quiet.