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Ghosts of Christmases Past

I am caught in the web of Decembers past this morning.  I seem not capable to think of anything but the sweet Christmas memories of my brothers and me as fresh-faced and shiny-eyed children on the farm so many years ago. 
I can still see my two brothers on Christmas morning smacking their hands into stiff genuine Rawlings baseball gloves, racing their authentic graders, tractors, and bulldozers across my mother's pristine hardwood floors, setting up their fancy Lionel electric train sets, or strapping on their shiny new six shooters and holsters.
I always thought as boys they got much neater gifts than I received, feeling a bit cheated. I had to be content with a new doll or a fancy pair of pajamas when I would have loved a set of Roy Rogers six shooters  myself.  Yes, I was a tomboy; but how could I be anything else, growing up with two rough and ready brothers as my only companions on a farm isolated from the nearest town by some nine miles.
They were only thirteen months apart in age and they shared everything, including a conspiracy against me, their older sister, to be always in "cahoots", determined to make my life as miserable as they could,until they needed a thrid body for a quick game of work-up" baseball or a fall guy to hunt relentlessly while they pretended to be the sheriff and his deputy.

Now,this Christmas, I find myself once again feeling a bit left out..  I lost my precious baby brother Larry in 2005.  And yesterday morning, Jim, my other brother, stole quietly away to be with him.
I know those two are having one heck of a time today; but, somehow, I feel cheated yet again this Christmas.

posted on Dec 12, 2012 8:41 AM ()


I am so sorry. It is always worse at this time of year. They will live as
long as you remember them.
comment by elderjane on Dec 14, 2012 5:57 AM ()
Thank you Jeri. My biggest fear was that he would die on Christmas Day. I can at least be thankful that he slipped away when he did.
reply by redimpala on Dec 16, 2012 4:35 PM ()
I am so sorry for your loss...
comment by kristilyn3 on Dec 13, 2012 7:13 AM ()
Thank you, Kristy. We had his memorial service in Oklahoma City today. I returned home about 4:00 p.m. I am really tired tonight.
reply by redimpala on Dec 13, 2012 7:20 PM ()
My heart goes out to you, Joan. 'Tis a poignant, bittersweet, heart-sore time for me and my family as well, with the very recent death of my dear sister-in-law. Loss like this is always hard, but especially keen at this time of year. Sending love, support, sympathy and caring....
comment by marta on Dec 12, 2012 12:32 PM ()
reply by marta on Dec 12, 2012 12:42 PM ()
Thank you, Marty; and I return those same sweet sentiments to you. From sorrow we will find the courage to remember why we have this special celebration each year. God bless you and keep you and yours.
reply by redimpala on Dec 12, 2012 12:36 PM ()
You have memories of your brothers--that is more important than what a lot of people have today--keep thinking of them.
comment by greatmartin on Dec 12, 2012 8:52 AM ()
Martin, I'm sure these memories will become sweeter in the days and months and perhaps years to come. Right now, they are still too bittersweet for me to fully appreciate them.
reply by redimpala on Dec 12, 2012 9:16 AM ()

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