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So I had a very bust week! I even got a mail from
Martin asking for his fix! I thought that was pretty cool. For those of you
who do not know Martin you should check out his blog,
Gay, Poor Old(er) Man , he is a pretty interesting dude.
Anyhow what has Holly done?
Well Johnny has begun a New Series called "The Nature
of Pain " in addition to already teaching what it means to be a slave.
So I was at a, call it a seminar last weekend , a
private convention of sorts, where he was doing a session on pain I was the prop
of course. I am very good for that sort of thing because when done right I
never want it to stop. I can be whipped and beg for more even once I am covered
with bruises. It takes me to what we in the lifestyle call sub-space. Subspace
is a psychological state you ender as a submissive where the chemical
epinephrine as well as other chemicals including endorphins and is released by
the nervous system in response to the fight or flight response. These drugs,
while they do occur naturally in you body and can be induced not only by pain
but also such things as sports which is why extreme sports came to be because
some times, like with bdsm vanilla just is not enough.
When this happens when you enter subspace you are no
longer a part say of your environment but your focus is only on you the next
stroke you leave your self in a sense and are only part of the sensation. They
say the effects of the epinephrine are basically a naturally occurring morphine
high. When I am there I can take anything that is dished out and it is very
important you have dominant that will not go to far because in that state you
are willing to do or take anything. For me the end result is usually mild to
sever bruising which is what I desire because the effects then last for days.
Every time I sit or move a certain way I get a little flash of the pain then an
instant reminder of where I have been and the high comes back if only mildly.
Johnny, while all of you might think he is a total
asshole happens to be one of the best Doms I have ever been with, known, or seen
in action at bringing a girl out of subspace and an expert at after care if
required.
He is perhaps comparable to many monsters in history at
the infliction of pain but what makes him different , if only a different kind
of monster is that he does it to those who have consented if only once.
So that was last weekend and this week was spent
interviewing additional female subs for his shows because it is always best to
start with an un bruised bottom, back, chest and what not because the people
watching want to see the marks, bruises and welts happen. He has two other
ladies he uses for shows but he has a hectic month coming up so he has to use
seasoned subs instead of ones he has trained himself.
He has plenty actually but they are not acceptable for a
performance because of ascetic sometimes and they just do not get there well and
it takes too long. Do not get me wrong he uses all kindsa girls with all
different looks and body styles but the aesthetics are different for his shows.
He does not want easy bruisers or hard bruisers and cannot use girls who have
low self esteem and might suffer having to look as you do when you are going
through the pain. Some of the facial expressions are only pretty to other
sadists and you have to be careful how far you take humiliation so not to break
someone irreparably.
In addition to this I have to do a ton of writings for
these that people pay for. So it has been an incredible week especially with
Frolicon coming. Not to mention website maintenance, ghost writing, and the
usual back work for all this.
All paid writings are available at my sites or Johnny’s
if you are interested I mean some are about sex and sexcapades but a lot of them
are informational and text book like.
He is just now premiering his site and when I get iit
done I will send you a link!
That is what I have been doing way strapped and I have
to leave in about an hour to go buy some products for sale after his show. In
the mean time he is off somewhere training Abbey. She is his special pet right
now.
I will be back on tonight though doing what I do best!
