Tomorrow being Fathers Day.


Well as many children and adult will be visiting dad on his big day.
How I envy these people as many will be visiting dad.
May go fishing,playing tennis or just be together.
I never had a relationship with my father.
Why did I not asked him when being little where did I come from?
Who are we?who are my ancestor etc.
Why did you come to the states,did not like where you were at.
Yes,questions,questions as many of us have not asked Dad or Pa etc.
Well most of the information that I got had to go online to find out who he is.
Was he a good man,bad man,gangster etc.
Why did I not ask?was I afraid of him etc.
None of my siblings ask.
What does this tell you?think that most of us was afraid to ask or did not know how to ask.
Why did he not gather us and tell us the history of where he came from and our grandparent which I never met or had.
Maybe because he could not speak English very well to tell us.
Why did we not ask him tell us a story etc.
What am I getting at.
For those of you still have your dad and granddad asked them.
Pumped them.How did they meet mom etc.
I do envy them going over to dad and mom house for Sunday dinner or just getting together.
Why am I still here with all of my family gone.
Was I spare?Why at this age I do not live like an old man like most of them do.
I hear music all of the time in my head.Songs from many years ago.
Everything that I did and learn was in my later years of life.
Why did this not happen when I was young?
Maybe something is waiting for me out there.Don"t ask.
Why am I running or walking around with many out there in pain and cannot get around.
Why am I not in wheel chair,walker,why!!!!!
Happy Fathers Day and enjoy your dad and granddad.
Hang up your cell,I pad and enjoy the visit
As most of you know,you never grow up.Nor should you.Keep up the curiosity h
The yearning and learning.Keep everything in balance.
How do grow up without growing old.
Is this me,have not grown up and still act like a child?
Is this a good thing for me and keeping my self young?
I do not feel like 82 and I know that am not.
What is it?what keeps me going.
If you stop growing then you will die.
Being a father is a tough job.
For me it was and did not fare too well in raising my children.
I know that I fail and why did I fail.
Should not had children,that is the answer
Some men meant to be Dad and some don't
Most men are not cut up to be a dad.
For those who know this,they mad a smart choice.
I did not.
I wanted to be a son to my dad but did not.
No!I do not feel sorry for myself.
Still have many years to grow up.
No matter what age I am.Still be a kid,child etc.
Good afternoon.





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