A year ago i was found,now I find I am lost or am I.

I finally found happiness within myself a yr 1/2 ago.Now i question all that i thought i knew.My husband being gone has done something to me.I told myself and my husband God did this for a reason.I'm scared.

I fear a great change coming in the next 2-3 months.There has been a great change in communications between us.No letters,no IM's,no calls hardly it has been almost 2 wks since i've talked to him.Last we talked were harsh words.Very!!There is something inside of me saying I will not stand for this talk to me.It has been hard on all of us.I will put up with so much.I've put up with 16 yrs of ups,downs,below the belts.

I guess I wish i knew if there where other wives with the same fears?I would like to know...So I'm wondering thru all this time alone am i actually LOst,or Found???