I said the other day i didn't have anything to look forward to.Well God does work in (his time)Alan told me to Really start packing(been here and there)Because we have a new Address.YES!!Its all happening so fast now.I was mad because the move wasn't happening when i wanted.Now its here.Our place will be ready for us to move into March 6th.Wow thats not long at all.He leaves tomorrow to go back down there and will get everything in order electric,water,internet,phone ect.Oh I feel---not sure.Glad yet scared.I really haven't sat down with my mom,aunts,uncles to say bye.Really.Mom has been avoiding me.She said so herself because she will miss me and she is sad.(well spend time with me and chan is what i say)but it hasn't been that way.You know I bet that this time will fly by.Well all i have to do is try not to look for negative in this move.@ first I was all excited.Then mom said what will you do if you start fighting?You don't know anyone and I won't be there to come stay with..Well gee i really didn't need to hear all that.I needed to hear oh this will be great for you all.A new start in a way.You'll be happy.try not to worry about anything...So alan and i have to be our own cheering section.So i think in a way i'm already alone here.Let alone there.Hell i've been alone kinda more or less for the past 2yrs.Mom hasn't really been around for me here.oh darn this is going to be ok,good--no great.(i hope)then again shucks it will be what we make it now won't it.....WHEW...Life is funny....