how lovely is this.... NOT!!!!! well lets see I though I was in a relataionship but I'm starting to think that I'm not, well when I first moved in with him everything was fine we did everything together but no we never do anything anymore for some reason, and then last night I seen him text some one and the first part of it said sorry bab or baby or something like that and then I got pissed because its like what the hell is going on, and to come to think of it I have been thinking something has been going on for the longest time now since we never do anything together anymore, so what is there to say about that, but the thing that I don't get that everybody tells me that he cares so much about me and all this stuff but its like he cant tell me how much he cares about me or at least show it at least once in a while that would be nice if he could do that, and its like he is always asking what is wrong with me, but if he would just take the time to think about everything then maybe he would figure everything out with out me having to tell him what is wrong with me, its like I'm trying to make everything work out for us. I'm going to school now, I'm going to start working every night this week and he only works maybe two days a week maybe three if hes lucky. As of right now I still can't drive but I hope I can next week, so thats hard on me if not both of us because he has to drive me to school the two days i have school and then the days i work, if not I have to have my mom or some one come and pick me up if hes at work, but when I look at all this stuff I am trying to make everything work out for the both of us since I am working and going to school and trying to get my sleep and do my school work at the same time and all that stuff its all kinda hard but Im getting by but then again. it just feels like hes always trying to put me down for everything and that gets old and I just dont know if i can do it any more, i try to ask him for help with stuff if i dont understand it but does he help me no he tells me to figure it out myself that hurts but i deal with it. but what can i say... i dont know what there is to do any more.. all i can say is to try and make this work out but who knows if they ever will, and back to that text that he sent last night, yeah he was drunk but whatever thats doesnt really matter to me if he was drunk or not but i think hes been talking to her for a long time now, but after i saw that i asked his brother and he told me he didnt know and today his brother called him and he was on speaker phone and he was going to tell him something but the first thing he told him was dont say anything though and then thats when he told him that he was on speaker phone then he said whatever and then he hung up, so then my boyfriend or whatever we are right now asked me what i said and i said nothing, he asked me why i had a smile on my face when really i didnt because i was pissed because i told hes brother not to say anything to him about me asking him about that chick, and what was he going to do.. so he asked me... so i did i tell him. i told him that i asked his brother a question, then i said whos bree and what does he tell me.. no body now, then i got pissed, then he started to play with his phone so who knows what he did.. so then after that i just got in the shower because i wanted to be by myself and theres really no where else to go, i just have no clue what to think about that anymore.. i think i should just pack up all my shit and move out and go from there... but then again hes all freaking out for when i start to drive when i get to, he doesnt think i will ever come home for some reason i have no clue why hes thinking that when i have school and i will be working every night and then come home right after work so i dont see why i wouldnt ever come home when i start to drive.. so in a way that shows you that he cares but then again i dont know what to say or think about that anymore sin theres some other chick... but whatever i give... but who knows maybe things could get better with in this next week or somethin but we will just have to wait and see how things go..