So my weekend was nice … a little bit more exciting than my usual routine … but still nice. On Friday I ended up getting coffee with my friend at Denny's. We'll call her Tam. The thing is...I don’t drink coffee at all. So I ended up getting a tall Ice Tea Lemonade (Green Tea Flavor, because the other varieties that they offered didn’t sound too pleasing).

Tam and I ended up talking and catching up with one another, which was nice. Another friend came along (we’ll call her … Rain, because I like that name. Whether it be for a guy or girl) and they were joking with each other that they were in a “rocky” relationship. In the sense that Tam now has a boyfriend and she’s trying to balance her time with Rain and her other friends as well.


I was joking with Tam that me and Jim (my best friend) are divorced because he spends all his free time with his girlfriend and basically kicked me out on the curb. Stupid Jim..lol She invited me to watch a movie with a couple of her other friends. We ended up watching the Simpsons.

Now, I used to love this show. It was well written in the early seasons but I felt like it gradually declined in the humor department. The writing wasn’t as funny as it use to be. The movie was “o.k.” nothing too spectacular nor too mundane about it. It felt like I was watching a Simpsons episode stretch for an hour an a half.

There were the funny moments, the beginning of the movie when Homer was wondering why he would pay so much money to watch something he could see on television, the Ralph moments (one of my favorite characters) and of course the satire the writers brought to the movie.

It was fun watching it, we laughed quite a bit, but a definite movie if you’re a Simpsons fan though. We went to eat dinner at TGIF’s afterward, but it felt awkward.

I don’t really hang out with Tam that much. So the feeling of being excluded came to my mind. They were discussing fun times and weekend trips they used to go on, clubs they went to and of course memories of the good old day’s. I’m not out to everyone. I don't announce it to everyone. Just a percentage of people whom I feel close to.

It felt odd when Tam was talking to her boyfriend and cousin (who also came along with us) when she said in front of everyone that she wants me to take her to a gay bar. It just felt weird for her to say that. It was almost like she was identifying me soley as, “The Gay Guy". I mean, yeah .. I’m gay. But that doesn’t define who I am as a person. I’m still me. I'm not ashamed if people find out. It's just being gay doesn’t change who I am.

Everyone seemed cool with (hopefully) me being gay. So I was happy they didn’t feel awkward about it. The expression on Tam’s boyfriend and cousin's faces were amusing. They both had that “semi-shocked” look when she was talking about our plans and that I was gay. I was thinking *awkward pause...time to change the subject*

Didn’t really do anything on Saturday. I went to the Domes then I basically stayed home and practiced my guitar. My sister called to tell me her computer died on her or more like her hard drive died on her. Her husband knows almost nothing about computers, so for a large portion of the day, I was researching on solutions to solve this problem. Let’s just say … it’s not salvageable. It would be a miracle if I could get any data out of it.

I was a bit surprised because my ex-boyfriend IM’ed me when I was online. Which was shocking because I wasn’t expecting him to do so. We haven’t spoken to each other for over 6 months, so it was awkward chatting with him again. He just wanted to check up with me. Which I found sweet of him to do so.

He can be deceivingly sweet at times. I supppose that's what attracted me to him in the first place. That and he was an amazing kisser. But at other times he’s the biggest jerk in the world. Like he’s an oversized ass that needs to be kicked. I know I would never get back with him, but sometimes the old feelings I once I had for him reappear, and I have to remind myself why I broke up with him in the first place.

When it came down to it I had a nice relaxing weekend. But not so when today arrived and I had to go back to the grind. Don’t get me wrong. I don't hate school or work (did I just say that?) but sometimes you just get tired and want to relax your mind.

Hope everyone has a good week!