Today and tonight has been a stressful thing.Maybe i am overracting probably.Long story short.After going to work yesterday he gets home 21 hrs later.I go through a period of oh gosh I hope he is ok and hasn't had a wreck,then I get really mad.I got it off my chest and was feeling better then he asks me I told you I had to go to work tomorrow?Tears burned my eyes and I said of course not.He has been working since Thurs.and didn't come home 2 times this wkend.I'm emotional.I hate his job.But me being insecure bring about this worry that he could be having an affair.I just am to the point of wanting to go home.To tenn.It was easier to just wait on his weekend visit a month and phone call each night when I was there in Tn.Hell I talked to and seen him more when I was back home than I do here Ms.I feel so down.I hate feeling this way.I hate it.Then he just leaves me in the bedroom and doesn't come and try to talk to me just goes to play a game with son.Right now i just hate him,this relationship,this state,everything!!!I'm so ready to give up.I'm getting closer and closer to just not want to work on things.I feel it and it does scare me to have that "not caring"cause it hurts too much.Sorry I just had to vent if i vent to him I will explode.Its too late for that..Going to the couch for the night.