We talked to the Sgt. told him that she had respect issues.I said i tell her not to do it you can bet she will.That is all i said.The next day she was a different person.We will see.I told Alan i can't do this when the baby comes.We are thinking about this spring when school lets out me moving back to Tenn. finishing our house there and saving like 10,000.00$ I'll be alone again but back home and we won't have the extra rent.His job will be up in DEC.I figure that will be 5 months with him here in MS alone.He will come home every other wkend.That is unnerving to me kinda i hate him driving all that way alone.Tired and trying to get there can be dangerous.I don't know.I just know that in my heart i won't be happy raising a child here.Alan hasn't been home in yrs since before Iraq he misses it.and Chan misses his grandparents.I miss my mom.I just don't know.We will see how it goes after i have the baby.I told Alan i may get so wrapped up  with the baby that i forget about home.(doubt it )but you never know.Other things have to factor in.If i have post partum(hope not)but gosh at the money we would be able to save to buy land down from his parents home.Its on top of a mtn and 1/2 mile from my mom's cabin.We want to build a house that is one of the reasons he took this job here in MS.We just need new windows,bathroom and sheet rock in our house there and we can rent it out or sell it.Its huge and right near the best school.So its location and size is good.We don't owe that much more on it.It could be paid off soon if we took the money we are spending to have a nice house here.1400.00 a month gosh it really would be paid off soon.

   But down here it seems we are getting back in the hole (money)that we were in before Iraq.I hate it.We are paying 1400. here and 600. on mortgage at home each month.Not counting utilities so you can see what we would be saving a month if i were to go home.But i won't do it if all the factors aren't right when school lets out..Like my mental state chandlers,all of that i will consider.I won't be selfish and just up and say i hate Mississippi and leave him here.What possible good would that do?none.See we have been trying to put 5-6 hundred into the house up there a month to get it done.Well we don't have it just moving with the deposits and such have put us in a bind til after Christmas.Oh good grief.Well that is what is on my mind lately.How are you....Angie