Toxic relationships.Ever have one?How do you know that it is indeed toxic?Oh you'll know.That relationship that lasts for 2,4,10 yrs in your mind.The one that got away perhaps,a never ending memory that envades your thoughts at a song,smell,perhaps a dream that wakes you at 3am.To a where did that come from ten yrs down the road.That kind of relationship.Yet your older and look at it differently at this time in your life.You wake to a realization that you are glad (maybe)that you didn't take that path yrs ago...Then a fantasy of what ifs.Have you ever had this happen or am i alone in the assumption that i am alone on this?

   Some people have 1 of these in your lifetime.I have had or do have 3.It is haunting at times.Agonizing over chooses made a decade ago.Some never get to Re-kindle these types of relationships.Therefore the memories that plague your mind always.It seems.Then again some Do get the chance to go back and move forward from your past.Yet you let it go again.It starts all over.Questions:what keeps  a person trying and trying on this one person?Yr after yr,only to fail over and over to hurt over and over.what is the purpose of continually hurt ?Denial or just blind to the No's in an effort to break this person down and that they will turn that no to a yes.Or is it just hearing there voice again and again that will leave you with a memory of your past with them?Am i making any kind of sense here?